lonely girl

today, i came home… and got slapped back into reality - literally. after finally having afew days away to keep my mind off my life, it all became apparent that everything is just too much for me to handle anymore.

i came home a spring in my stride, a smile on my face knowing that my best friend would be there for me - even when they live on the other side of the state - no matter what. i arrived to be picked up by my family who promptly reminded me of how my real life was, what it was really like. “You’re a cunt, You’re a screw up *slaps accross the face* You really thought it would all go away when you left?”. how do you respond when you know your whole family is no longer there for you, they want you gone, they simply dont care anymore. could you handle living under the same roof with a mother and sister knowing life would always be that little bit worse, that it would never be the same as before everything.